And so it goes..........

What a day I had................it was a very rough day emotionally!  The old Marty would have immediately drowned his feelings in a mountain of food.  I had no desire to eat anything...........I still find it strange that I have changed in this way!  Grateful, but I'm not sure what I did that brought this change about.  Oh yeah!  Like maybe Everything Marty!  I suppose that it could be a result of all the internal work I've done.  But it still surprises me!  Instead of eating myself into oblivion, I went to the pool and tore up the water.  I was not feeling strong physically today and I was going to blow the workout off.  But then, when the shit went down, all I wanted to do was hit the water.  I was still upset when I got home, but I was thinking more clearly!

So after this rather awful day............or I suppose I could put a different spin on it.  Today I faced some unpleasant realities that really shook me.  But it was a big wake up call to me!  I guess I must have needed it!  So the Universe kicked me in the ass, and I guess I should ultimately be grateful.  To face the truth and move on!  So it might sting for a minute, but I'll be fine and I won't do anything self destructive.

So as I was saying, after this enlightening day, I received a letter from a friend I had shared my story with.  She is in need of a lifestyle makeover and I was happy to share my experience with her.  She sent me the following letter:

"I have to tell you again how much our dinner conversation has reverberated with me since last weekend. Everything from the process/journey to starting w/ just one meal if I have to.

Time and time again this week I've heard your voice. Saw cookies and for a sec I said they're on sale, so its OK. Then I hear Marty say, "You can either make a good choice or a bad choice." Over and over again this week - its become my new mantra.

I'm beginning to feel that I can do this - one day at a time. And that its a total lifestyle change. So thank you again."

 

I was blown away that I had such an affect on my friend.  It brought home to me how important this blog might be.  If I just touch one or two people who decide to make a change in their lives because of my story, it was absolutely worth it!  I am truly humbled by this!  It came at the right time!

I have to say that I do seem to be becoming addicted to the gym and pool, but I don't know if that's a bad thing.  I suppose if it interferes with me getting things done, then it is, but if it just makes me stronger and healthier, maybe not such a bad thing!  Maybe I'm becoming addicted to the endorphins!  I can live with that!

So I am settling into my new lifestyle and figuring out what I need to do to maintain my current weight.  I am building lean muscle mass and displacing fat so that will have some impact on how things develop.  But I am very pleased with my progress and understand that it will take some time to build the body I want.   But it's the journey so bring it on!  

 

I am stacking weights, swimming 6-10 miles/week, taking some Yoga, mat Pilates, dance classes and a little spinning.  I'm trying to engage every part of my body and become intimate with how it moves.  It has been an amazing adventure as I find myself moving in ways that I never imagined myself moving.  I love exploring my own personal limits and seeing that I am capable of so much more than I ever imagined.  I am a Magnificent Beast!

So I wish you all well on your personal journeys............

Love & Light,

Marty