A Reality Check

So I ordered some clothes online since I need some new threads.  I got a couple of jean jackets, pea coat and a shirt.  All XL, what I thought I wear.
Everything was way too big........it all has to go back.  I wear a L now...........
I don't think I ever wore a plain L except maybe in jr high school.  I don't even know how to react to this.  Now that I have a new body, I don't want to hide it under baggy clothes.  I look in the mirror and don't think I look that thin, but I guess I'm smaller than I think. 

But my body is not where I want it to be yet, so it's not time to start getting lazy and resting on my laurels.  So..........today I took a 1hr. cardio blast class and right after that I took a 1hr. dance fusion class.  It kicked my ass!!!  But the trainers all told me I had good flexibility and was able to keep up with the class and so all the dance moves.  I didn't think I was doing that well.......but the positive reinforcement was nice and it did give me an idea of where I'm at in terms of my overall physical condition.  I was also the only guy in both classes.............they all thought I was so brave.  After the classes, I hit the pool and swam my obligatory 1 mile.  An almost 3 hour workout and although I was a little sore, I felt great.  I keep amazing myself at how much I can do and how much more I think I have in me.  The sky's the limit............I keep asking my body for a little more and it gives it to me.  I am in better shape and better condition than I have ever been in my life........period!  Who woulda thunk it?  At 57, I'm in the best shape of my life and getting better everyday!  And I will continue until I have the body I really want and am as healthy as I can possibly be.  And then, I'll just work hard to maintain it for the rest of my life.  All this and I do have a torn ACL in my right knee, arthritis in my left knee, and sciatica.  But I don't let any of it stop me from doing what I want to do, except maybe for running.  I avoid that!

I spoke to an old friend who has weight challenges!  She told me that my blog was very inspiring to her and she was using me as an example and a catalyst for her to take the first steps necessary for her own transformation.  She decided it was time to stop sitting on the sidelines and not living life, just observing..........a spectator.  She has decided to do what is necessary to start living her life again and doing the things that make her happy and fulfilled.  That's what it's all about..............reclaiming your life!  CHOOSE LIFE!!!!!  It's also far better than the alternatives!

So I need to actually go to the store and try on clothing so I know what size I really wear now..........maybe then I can go back to the internet bargains.  But I need to try things on.............it will be a reality check for sure.  A good one!!

If you are struggling with you weight, hang in there......don't give up!  Believe in yourself and that you are much stronger than you think you are.
If you put your mind to it, and want it badly enough, you can do it!!
I'd be happy to talk to anyone who needs advice or just a little encouragement.  Please feel free to email me and I will get back to you!

musecatnyc@gmail.com

Love and Light on your journeys.........
Marty